A month has gone by already????

I can't believe that a month has gone by already since I last updated this blog. I know that it isnt public but this is my blog for my year and a day, I need to update so much more! Very soon it will be public and I will be on my way on my spiritual path!

I guess I should do some updating on what has happened this past month. First I have made a video about this blog and also my year and a day. I was going to start my Y/D on Mabon but then I decided that I needed more time to get ready for my journey ahead. I dont know why I really needed a certain date, in some ways I feel that I have already started my journey.

I have been doing some reseach, almost every night, on other people's Y/Ds but I have decided that its great to look at others but really when it comes down to it I need to do this on my own. I had also thought that I should turn to others and ask questions and learn from them and I still might but I really think I need to do this on my own. After all this is my path not anyone else's and no one will have the same path as mine.

I also decided that I will be doing a series on YT on my Y/D. I am no expert on any subject but there have been some interest from others both left by comments and PMs that they want to see more from me. I think this is great, scarey but awesome! At first I didnt think I could really share anything new with anyone but then I remembered that some people are just starting out and they dont know as much as I do. I would love it if I could help people in any way I could!

In this past month I have let go of things that have been building up in me for some time. These things might not have come out the right way for some but they came out and it is the best thing for me. Its been a hard few weeks for me but I know now that I needed to do this. I cant start something new if I am still holding on to the past and if I still have things bottled up in me just waiting to come out. I have asked myself many times what I could have done differently so it wasnt such a painful road for me and others and the answer is I couldnt have. It was meant to come out like this. I do feel regret for hurting others but in the end I would have just hurt myself and them more.

I have always been the kind of person that held everything in and didnt want anyone to be hurt. I have always been there for others at a moments notice but I have never felt like I could go to anyone myself. This is something in the next year that I need to work on.

I am going down a path that I have never been on. I can't turn to anyone when I come to a fork in the road and ask which way to go and I cant turn around either. I can't ask if I am going the right way because no one knows that for sure but me. This will be the greatest adventure of my life.

Samhain is almost a month away and that is when I will be starting this journey, well really November 1st will start it. I will be taking you along for the ride. I would like to say that this trip will be an easy one but as we all know there is always road construction and objects in our way.